Saya Ingin Menegur Dengan Baik..

As a Muslimah, I admit I am not a good one, nor a good example to anyone who'd like to embrace Islam. I rarely mengaji, seldomly solat on time, not covering my aurat 100%, mengumpat tak hengat, watch shows which has provocative moves/dances/lyrics/whatevers; the list goes on and on.

But as a Muslimah, there are several things that I really can't tolerate people doing the following:

1. Not performing their solat rituals at all, or just doing it when they feel like it;
2. Making fun of ayat Qur'an;
3. Making fun of Kalimah Syahadah;
4. Not fasting in the month of Ramadhan;
5. Making fun of other people who actually follow the way of Islam;
6. Dalam surat beranak/IC tulis Islam, but hidup macam bukan Islam.

The sad part of this is, I'm not a person who'd tell off people of that sort not to do that. I'm really a passive person, me. Maybe I don't like to offend people (more like tanak carik gaduh) especially with my good friends.

But there's a saying (sabda Rasulullah SAW):

Siapa saja diantara kalian yang melihat kemungkaran, maka tegurlah dengan tangannya (kekuasaannya). Jika ia tidak mampu, maka tegurlah dengan lisannya. Jika tidak mampu juga, maka tegurlah dengan hati. Namun, ini adalah selemah-lemahnya iman.

So, dengan selemah-lemah imanku ini, I'd like to advise all my visitors here to prepare yourself for the future. You wouldn't know for how much longer you'll live. You might be facing a stroke tomorrow and leave the world on the next day, na'uzubillah.

Ade orang kata, Allah jadikan neraka itu untuk orang Islam, yang mana bahan bakarnya adalah dari orang kafir. Wallahua'lam.

Justeru, dengan itu, in this holy month of Syaaban, let us all together improve ourselves. Tampal mana yang berlubang, tambah mana yang kurang.

What triggers me to type this was, there's this YT link posted by an FB 'friend' of mine. The vid was made for fun (so to speak) but IMHO it really made fun of the Kalimah Syahadah. It might be funny for them, but very insulting for me. It really shows the level of iman kids nowadays -and that friend of mine- have. And it shows how weak I am.

Itu saje muhosobah diri pada hari ini.

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Sturm und Drang.

(Before I start, I better sidai dulu tudung2 yang baru dibasuh itew).

My dad was warded on Wednesday night. Not many of my friends know this on that very day (remember, my day ends at 7am Malaysian time the next day, by that means Thursday morning); only my boss (since I was going to send Dad to the hosp that morning but Mom cakap tak payah ikut), my observant twitter and FB friends (since I put in on my status), and one of my team mates. Which was fine by me, but apparently some might view it differently.

I admit I suck big time at conveying news - especially bad ones - about my family. I think I'm not that good with my emotions. I have this vague feeling that the smses sent to my boss telling that Dad was warded sounded fake. Too much details. And I didn't even called him about it - reason being my dam might break upon informing him verbally (I remember that one time when my tears can't stop falling bila cerita macam mana anak kucing yang telah rosak saraf dia buleh mati). And also, it just so happened that I promised a friend to go supper with her after work that day, but I held my tongue very tight and she prolly did not suspect a thing.

I remember that day when my granddad on Dad's side passed away. I was in Form Five, and it was at prep time when a warden broke the news (I think it was Ustazah Einee). Went to the parking lot where my parents were waiting, and straightly went to Segambut. Paid my last respect to Gramps, and then guess what. Mom said (somewhat like this), "Go back to your school. You're gonna face a big exam this year." And I complied. I think some of my classmates was amazed to see me back in class for night prep.

Maybe they're thinking:

Cold heart, baby. (bak lirik lagu A.Mi.Go by SHINee)

Since they didn't see me shed any tears. Prolly. (Man, that J&J Baby Shampoo was effective!). At that time, I was reminded by myself that kalau kita menangisi pemergian orang, nanti orang tu akan tersiksa dalam kubur. Little that I know, menangisi yang dimaksudkan tu more like meratapi atau meraung2. Tu la, budak benak.

Same thing happened when it's time for my grandma from Mom's side. But this time, it was my sis's turn. I think she was in Banting or Ireland. Or was she in Jenan? Not sure about that. Anyways. I told Mom, just tell my sis so we can all pay our last respect to Grandma. And again, "Tak payah la.. nanti dia nak balik. Biar la dia belajar."

I guess from there I learnt that.. Study first? Family second? Madness. Why does Mom keep on doing this to me? To us? (Dah start la nak emo ni.. huh bawak bertenang... amek napas...huuhh haaahhh huhhhh haaahhh)

Korang paham dak ape aku cuba sampaikan ni? I guess not.

Anyways, berbalik kepada cerita.

I still haven't told my close friends personally about Dad's condition. Maybe... I don't want them to pay a visit? Or maybe comforting me? Can't say I'm not emotionally bothered about this matter, but I guess I don't like being reminded of it? Something like that. I'm doing this to stay sane... nantoka.

Maybe I do need someone to comfort me.

Never felt so alone before.






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Syok Sendiri di Pagi Buta

In the mood for singing my heart out

Baru je lepas tonton vid sorang penyanyi rookie ni nyanyi lagu I Don't Care (2NE1). So tetibe gatal pulak nak wat mande yg sama. So. Instead of mengarang panjang2 (yang mana dah lama aku nak buat tapi asyik malas je) I'll give you this.

Here's me singing to SHINee's Juliette (nak abih dah). Sungguh tahpape. Sebab nyanyi pukul 2.45 pagi kwakwakwa

Juliette My Foot.m...

Dah alang2 tu, lagu I Don't Care gak.

I Don't Care My Fo...

Cukup? Boleh la.

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The Nameless Monster.

by Franz Bonaparta/Klaus Poppe (a fictional character in the manga Monster by Naoki Urasawa).

Once upon a time, there lived a monster without a name.
The monster wanted a name so badly he couldn't stand it.
So the monster decided to go off on a journey to find himself a name.

But because the world was so big, the monster split in two and went on two separate journeys.
One went east... and the other went west...

The one that went east found a village.
There was a blacksmith at the village entrance.
"Mr.Blacksmith, please give me your name."
"I can't give you my name."
"If you give me your name, I will jump inside you and make you stronger in return."
"Really? I'll give you my name if you can make me stronger."
The monster jumped inside the blacksmith.
The monster became Otto the blacksmith.

Otto the blacksmith was the strongest man in the village.
But one day... "Look at me! Look at me! The monster inside me has grown this big!"
Chomp. Munch. Crunch. Gulp.
The hungry monster ate Otto from the inside out.

He went back to being a monster without a name.

Even though he jumped inside Hans the shoemaker...
Chomp. Munch. Crunch. Gulp.
He went back to being a monster without a name again.
Even though he jumped inside Thomas the hunter...
Chomp. Munch. Crunch. Gulp.
He still went back to being a monster without a name.

The monster went to the castle to find a wonderful name.
Inside the castle, there was a very sick boy.
"I'll make you stronger if you give me your name."
"I'll give you my name if you can cure my illness and make me stronger."
The monster jumped inside the boy.
The boy became very healthy.
The king was delighted.
"The prince is well! The prince is well!"

The monster became fond of the boy's name.
He also grew fond of his life inside the castle.
That's why he endured even when he became hungry.
Everyday, even when his stomach became very empty, he endured.
But because he became so hungry...

"Look at me! Look at me! The monster inside me has grown this big!"
The boy ate his father, his servants, and everyone.
Chomp. Munch. Crunch. Gulp.

Because everyone was gone, the boy left on a journey.

He walked and walked for days.
One day, the boy met the monster that went west.
"I have a name. It's a wonderful name.
And then the monster that went west said, "I don't need a name. I'm happy even if I don't have a name. Because we're monster without names"

The boy ate the monster that went west.
Even though he now had a name, there was no one left to call him by his name...
Johan.
It's a wonderful name.

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Lo5

In the mood for Goodbye my Love by 8eight

Lo5 things that I want at this instant (6:10pm MYT)
1. Starbucks' Hazelnut Hot Chocolate
2. KFC
3. Time Off
4. My friend's book
5. Extra sleep

Lo5 things I want to do at the moment
1. Singing loudly in the middle of the office
2. Blog
3. Write short stories
4. Dance to 2NE1's FIRE and 2PM's Niga Mibda
5. Drive to the nearest KFC

Lo5 thing I have to do against my will at the moment
1. Macro
2. Refrain from taking short nap
3. Pretend that I'm in a really bad mood
4. Not imagining the succulent KFC chicken
5. Stay awake

Lo5 I wish for at the moment
1. All my good buddies to sign up for Twitter and be active
2. Powerful yet affordable internet connection at home
3. Megaupload not being shitty when I download the dramas when I get back from work today
4. Half-day leave
5. World peace

Lo5 things I will do after typing this
1. Lock my PC
2. Go to the washroom
3. Go to the cafeteria after that
4. Get one piece of fried chicken
5. Eat that fried chicken

(At this time of posting, I'm eating that piece of fried chicken.. yum!)

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Bleh~

In the mood for Juliette by SHINee

bantering bantering bantering
babablacksheephaveyouanywool?fancyyouasked,sir,whenyou'retheone'smakingmecold.

The answer to why I don't blog as much as I previously do:

THE Twitter.

I'm not expecting anything, but if you do wanna follow my updates, follow me on Twitter =] My username is dybb. Introduce yourself, and I might follow you back =]

Ok. Now, since I've already started an entry, lemme just continue typing.

1. I have a new hobby now - knitting. Ya btol, knitting. Okeh la, takley nak consider hobby lagi. I just learned the very basic of knitting. And on my way to produce a decent-sized coin pouch. Yay.

2. Semalam lepas balik keje pegi la pam tayar kat stesen minyak P berhadapan sekolah antarabangsa kat Ampang tuh. Masa pam dua tayar depan tu ok je. Tuptup bila pam tayar belakang sebelah kiri, makin lama makin kempis. Bengang giler aku. Nasib baik la ade stesen minyak M dekat2 situ, dan juga yang kempis tu tayar belakang. So dengan berhati-hati (kot) aku pun drive le ke M. Sekali pam letronik dia pun takleh pakai. Alhamdulillah ade pulak pam oldschool dekat sebelah dia, so in a way I don't have to drive yet again to another petrol station nearby. Dah abih pam tu, aku pun drive le ke rumah. Sekali hati tak puas, so singgah la dan mengepam balik kat stesen S. Bila dah puas hati, singgah kat stall Hassan Burger kat depan 7E kat BBAmpang dan membeli burger oblong.

3. I'm so through updating daily pics on tumblr. Bukan ape, I don't have the camera and the sceneries and the will. So, I'll put this statement on tumblr afterwards. And only upload a bulk of pics at a time. So in a way aku meneruskan la jugak koleksi gambar-gambarku ituh, cuma tak daily la.

4. Emmm tu je. Can't think of anything else. Other than waiting for my iPod kwakwakwa yeah I know last time I said I don't want any iPod. It's just a matter of change of taste.

Over to you, Scottie.

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Just for The Sake of Updating

In the mood for Insomnia by Wheesung


It's 4am++. I was going to retire for the day (again, for the second time) when I saw the link to his blog (his name has to be protected in order not to be suntuted by him later when he sees this entry iuaheoiaehiheoaiue :P).

After knowing him for a while, I really, really thought his spoken English is flawless (compared to mine). And I had some WTF moments where he publicly mocking my pronunciations and such - it's not like English is my mother tongue or something, so for me it's kinda acceptable la kan. SO when I saw the link to his blog and read his entries, I was like, OMG the façade. Lucky he works in a call centre, answering calls (duh) and don't need to draft replies to important correspondences. And it's not like he wrote articles for the daily news.

Nobody's perfect, right?

And it's not like my written English is waaaayyyy much better than him. But there's this thing call SPELLCHECKER. Use it.

In another limelight, my (cousin's) cat Montel and her four kittens (the fifth one passed away that very morning) has left the premise until further notice. It's kinda sad to see her go, with all her adorable-but-sickly second-batch kittens, after three? four? five? years taking care of her.

She was a good cat, almost all the time had her business done where it supposed to be, being sweet and all. But to take care all of her bushy kitties is really a hard work, especially for my sis Chea, since cleaning them would be very tiresome as they're still small and don't know how to dry themselves after baths. It hurts to watch every time my mum bathe them; she did not towel them dry like she supposed to do. And they'd shiver until one of us took them upstairs and blow dry them up

And so, I (on behalf of my sibs) wish them happy life with Montel's rightful owner.

Okay, time to wrap it up. Will story about my friend's new-found happy life later.

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Kebosanan

WMP playin' It's You by SuJu

That is what exactly I am feeling at this moment. It's not like I don't have anything to do, but then since I am going back in 2 hours time, I feel like it'll be a waste of time doing something that might be prolonged until EOD.

Sebenanye banyak aku nak taip... but then seperti biaso I'd rather do something else than updating my blog when I'm at home. Kat opis pulak, terasa macam nanti ade orang memerhati dari belakang. Not that I care.

And also, I haven't been updating my tumblr at all. So much for the idea of daily pics. Ah well. What I'll do later is take as many random pics that I can and do a mass update. The thing is, I don't take many pics as I used to. Not because I don't have the time, but it's just that I am quite bored using my phone's camera.

Which comes to the subject of buying a present for myself.

Masa besdey aku baru ni I didn't buy anything for myself, which is kinda sad as I do that every year ever since I received my first paycheck. Jadi, alang2 dah ade duit lebih baki servis kete hari tu (which I thought might reach over 1k), so I was thinking to get either one of these:
1. MP3 player. Might not be iPod sebab nanti nak kena install iTunes lak;
2. Kamera P6000 Nikon;
3. Henpon Lollipop - tunggu masuk M'sia;
4. Laptop kecik yang buleh masuk henbeg saiz sederhana.
Tapi before aku buleh beli semua ni, aku nak pegi ketuk kete dulu. Bape lama tah kemek kete tu, bapak aku pun dah tensen sebab tak terketuk2. Lepas tu, nak kena buat spek baru lak nih! Dah tak nampak dah. Apsal ek? Padahal baru je tahun lepas buat.

So, since dah nak balik kejap lagi, alang2 dah naik bas tu, buat spek skali la. Kan?

P/s - Menyampah plak nengok theme blogger nih. Nak tuka baru la nanti.

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May the Fourth be with you.

In the mood for Rollercoaster Love by JiSun

How was your 4th of May? Like any other usual days, huh..?
...

I would say mine would be a bit different from the usual Monday.

1. Slept late in the morning (about 7am++) to finish watching The Quiz Show (previous season) - I had to finish watching this there and then no matter what;
2. Woke up earlier than usual;
3. Had my car serviced after lunch hour (normally I'll have it done on a weekend morning);
4. Walked from the workshop to my house, amazingly, without any mengah2;
5. Had my car washed just before Maghrib. Well, it's included in the servicing package, so, yeah;
6. Went back home to have my Maghrib prayers (when I can actually go straight to Jusco AU2 and have my prayers there);
7. Went straight to AU2 after prayers, amazingly, without me mum babling(?) at me (which she normally does whenever I go out after Maghrib, even if the place is Carrefour just behind my housing area);
8. Went karaoke-ing on a Monday night (which was made possible by my colleague who's also working UK shift);
9. Left that shopping complex after midnight on a Monday night; and
10. Got back home and nobody was actually waiting for me.

I guess the force was with me.

Oh. Not to forget:
11. Typing this meaningless entry. --> masukkan je la sekali dah alang2 tak tido lagi ahahahaha :P


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Pfbhttt.

In the mood for Peace, Love & Ice Cream (cover) by Younha

Whatever.

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These Brats.

In the mood for Again & Again by 2PM, 've been playing it again and again and again...








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Three-Oh, Oh-Oh.

In the mood for doing nothing today

Yeah. It's here. Somewhat not that enthusiastic about it.
I hope I can manage to cross off the items in my list soon.

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Again & Again

In the mood for Again & Again by 2PM

2PM is back with Again & Again! MV and lyrics after the cut.


LYRICS:
('mma romanize the lyrics later! yay!)

[준수] Again and again and again and again
[재범] Again and again and again and again

[우영] 이렇게 왜 내가 또 너의 집앞에 또
서있는 건지 대체 난 바본지
정말 속고 또 속고 또 당하고 또 당해도 또
다시 이 자리에 와있는지

[준호] 내가 미쳤나 봐 자존심도 없는지
너에게 돌아와 쳇바퀴 돌듯이
이럼 안 되는데 되는데 되는데
하면서 오늘도 이러고 있어 no

[준수] Again and again and again and again
너에게 자꾸 돌아가 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라
[재범] Again and again and again and again
너의 말에 또 속아 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라

[닉쿤] 어쩜 이렇게도 바보 같니
내가 내가 왜 이렇게 된 거니
난 분명히 결심을 했는데 하고 또 했는데
왜 너에게 자꾸 돌아오는지

[준호] 내가 미쳤나 봐 자존심도 없는지
너에게 돌아와 쳇바퀴 돌듯이
절대 안 볼 거라 볼 거라 볼 거라
하면서 다시 또 이러고 있어.

[준수] Again and again and again and again
너에게 자꾸 돌아가 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라
[재범] Again and again and again and again
너의 말에 또 속아 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라

[찬성] 넌 대체 어떤 약이길래 끊을 수가 없어
나도 몰래 자꾸 너를 그리워하고 결국엔 또 찾고
나쁜 여자인줄 알면서 난 또 널 품에 안고 사랑을 해 보나마나 뻔히 다가올
내일의 아픔을 다 알고 있으면서 돌아서질 못해 결정을 못 내려

[택연] 젠장 나 왜이러니 왜 이 여자 옆에 누워있니
도대체 몇 번째 이 짓을 더 해봐야 내가 정신을 차릴런지
누가 좀 날 어디에다 묶어줘 어서 제발
Shes a bad girl I know (know) But here I go again Oh no

[준수] Again and again and again and again
너에게 자꾸 돌아가 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라
[재범] Again and again and again and again
너의 말에 또 속아 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라

belongs to JYP 엔터테인멘트

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Tiga Sekawan

Playa's playin' Shalawat kat blog Bisikan Permai

Ada seorang kawan namanya Ah Meng
Dia juga berkawan,namanya Muthu
Kami berkawan baik, sama sedarjah
Belajar bersama, main bersama
Hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey
Tiga sekawan

Soalan: Sape nama kawan lagi sorang tu? Jawapan di kotak komen.

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Fate was Playing April Fool With Me.

In the mood for not going to work at all.

010409 - Sigh.
Must've been one of the most hellish day of my life, starting when I left my house compound. I just wanna think that I might have forgotten to recite the du'a before leaving, and nothing related to first April whatsoever.

[All events happened on first April 2009]

Woke up late - well, I've told #2 that I'll be in late today since I OT'd last night. So I don't consider that a biggie. Went to the balcony and all clothes are dry - which is good since it'll not be left overnight later. All last night dishes were washed; only the cups used for breakfast left - still good. And since everything went fine, I've decided to leave early and drive safely (I have been guilty of road rages. Those rages really affect my gas tank and my wallet.)

And then it started. Just when I was at the T-junction (to get into the main road of my housing area), this one stupid asshole of a school bus driver kept on honking. I don't mind if it's really my fault, but since it's not, I did have this thinking of should I either stay and not get into the main road, or should I just comply and keep quiet. (It just came across my mind, wouldn't it be funnier and my day less hellish if I actually honk together with that asshole, just for fun's sake?). And so I complied - complete with angry words coming outta my mouth.

And then, along the way from my housing area to the office in KL, it seems like I had a bunch of pigs (fig.) lining up in front of my car - right until I've reached the dreaded parking lot. How awesome. Luckily I arrived around 30 minutes to work - about 1/2 an hour earlier than I'd expected. Maybe since there were pigs around me, I'd become more like Darth Vader on the road (don't ask how D.V. can be related to pigs) and that made me arrive quite early than the stipulated time.

Got into the office, tag's working fine. Got into my seat, switched on my PC. Logged onto the email and the office's IM. And suddenly, that vermin (see previous post) IMed me. Bad news - whenever she IMed me first, it'll always be bad news, since she normally doesn't actually IM me for fun. And she asked me to do her part of work. Hating her in the first place is one thing, but then I actually know how she works everyday - and I don't actually approve the way she does it. Her asking people doing her part of work does not means she has lots of other things to do. She wanted me to understand her situation, but how can I do that if she doesn't understand mine? The thing that she asked me to do - I was not fully trained on it so I am not confident enough to do that without any person to refer to in front of me. And the nerves she got! Maybe she thinks me going to the KL office is just for fun, every time.

I get very emo'ed by that, and tried to contain my anger. But it just so happened that that lousy system I have wasn't working well, and I clapped my hands hard (once) in anger. #2 was surprised, and just before he got to ask me what happened, I left my desk and went to the break out area. Oh the agony. But I consoled myself by saying the vermin just asked for a hand. And that thing she need me to do was urgent, and she was 'so occupied'. After cooling down I just told her that I will help, but I'mma bug her with all my might. She said OK. Cool. #2 kept quiet.

Work, work, short presentation about the enhancement scheme, work, bought some chocolates, work, then lunch hour. Me, Miss Always-me (MA from now on) and the wedding singer (WS) walked to a fancy fast food chain in the heart of KL. The seats we always choose were reserved, so we have no other choice but to move somewhere... um.. quite near to those seats. Ordered, talked, talked, then I made my move to the loo. Just as I turned, I fell down. On the floor. On my knees. My knees weren't hurt but my pride was. Ceh. I can only manage to keep my cool. Again.

Then on my way back to the office, I fell again. In the middle of the road. This time I sprained my ankle. Guess my shoes are playing games with me, something like "Ooh there's a hole! Let's see if we can walk on it without falling down.". It hurts big time. I was actually limping on my way to buy a 20-sen pack of ice from the cafe vendor, and the way back to the office. Thanks for being considerate, MA and WS. I really appreciate your kindness for letting a limping person by herself, being friends and such. I really do.

After #2 finished his meeting with the Great Shambalah, he asked about what had happened earlier in the morning (reminder: We're working in UK shift, so 'morning' means 3pm - 6.55pm), and I said the vermin asked for my help and that's all. Then I told him I sprained my ankle, just for the sake of telling. And he just gave me a smug face. Ah, why bother. When the IT guy came to fix MA's PC (she was at a manager's place), I had asked #2 for the extension to where MA's is, but he said he dunno. Since MA advised earlier to tell the guy and the Grand Shambalah that she's at that place - without giving any extension - I actually walked to that place. Maybe #2 saw I was limping badly then, he quickly asked some people nearby for the manager's extension. But as that place is, like, 30 steps away, I just walked, limping or not, didn't matter. Dunno whether #2 felt guilty or not. As far as I am concerned, I wasn't concerned.

And now, the highlight of my day. I've decided to do that vermin's work after all. So I IMed her, asking for stuffs and some help. AND SHE'S ACTUALLY PACKING TO LEAVE. AT 11PM WHEN THE SHIFT SUPPOSE TO END AT 12. AND JUST BECAUSE SHE CAME IN AT 1.30 AND NO MORE THAN THAT. AND I WAS THE ONE WHO HAS TO DO HER FRIGGIN URGENT WORK WHEN I HAVE SEVERAL OF MY OWN TO DO. I cried. Anger caught me there and then. I rushed away from my desk to the break out area, only to find out there was a couple of ladies discussing work. Damn. No place for me to cry out all the angst inside. I made a short round the floor, then back to my desk. Poured my dissatisfaction to #2. Just because he's my boss. I didn't expected anything from him, just wanting him to listen. Blablayadayada. Day ended.

And somehow (minus the part where I had to wait for this another unfavorable person - but that's another story) after the clock stroke 12, I felt like my life has returned to normal with the exception of my swollen feet. Truly, it must've been all the April Fool vibes being concentrated towards me that eventful day.

Am now thinking to come in late later today, if not taking EL.

Not being rebellious, but the swollen feet is kinda blue (lit. & fig.) at the moment. If I can't even walk to the loo, how can I press the clutch pedal on my manual car?

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Escape Route Needed.

In the mood for 8282 by DaVichi

I'll have my long awaited core leave in two weeks. The problem is, I don't have anywhere to go.

I've asked Fadx to join me to go for a vacation, somewhere overseas. She said, no money (since I said "Let's fly with [insert low-cost airlines here]"). Too expensive. Over her budget. Same goes with local destinations. （ _ _ ）..........o

So now, I plan to go alone. Need to escape from the hectics of life (including the ones at home). I'm planning for Labuan. o(>▽<)o

Anyone can suggest where can I find cheap hotels around that area? Motels would be fine too, but not travelers' hostels or something like that. I need privacy, and at the same time I want to be near the beach. I wanna take lotsa pics, but don't want to be in a tour - I'd like to tour alone. Or just lazing around near the beach. But that would be much cheaper if I don't fly, so yeah, I'll drive around the island by myself.

Wait. What about the weather then? （〇_ｏ） Would it be raining like hell during 10-13 April? That would be bad, wouldn't it?

Is the weather near Desaru be as bad as in KL? I'll go there instead lah. Driving also ok. (((p（＞v＜）q)))！！

So now, I'll have to decide on whether to go to Labuan or Desaru - and I need your help for the escape route. Might post the result later... Within a week I guess.

Eh Anne kalau aku gi Penang buleh dak aku menetap kat rumah hang? Eh kalu aku lepak je tak beh la pulak kan... so takpelah ahaks （＾＿−）≡★

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... And Now is the Time for a Short Commercial Break.

WMP playin' nothing. Azan Subuh kat luar.

True, I've been neglecting this blog for quite a long time.
Blame it on BOF. Ha Ha.

The truth is, my life is kinda hectic these days. So many things to do, so little time. True, each of us gets 24 hours each. But does every single person uses those hours accordingly? In my case, no. But even I was given more hours than others, I'm sure life won't be less hectic than it currently is.

Recaps:

# Lack of rest. Blame it on BOF.
# Two interviews in a month. Both failed.
# Too many album releases within the first quarter of this year. Haven't got the time to review them all. Again, blame it on BOF.
# Bought 3 books and lost one on my way to work last three weeks. Was thinking of throwing that missing book away anyway. Wasn't expecting it'll leave my hands that fast. At least lemme read 1/2 way.
# Negligence towards my daily duties. Must. Stop. Now. Now. Get it. OK.
# Plans to be executed - right after the tax season. If by then I haven't got what I wanted.
# Bought a new modem. And not satisfied. Just because my last ADSL modem doesn't need any power supply. At least I felt the connection was somewhat faster than this one.
# Scars on m face. Hideous ones.
# He sang to me. But I didn't feel anything. Well actually he only sampled his songs. Yet he's the first to strumming on his ol' banjo to me, and I wasn't touched.

Enough recaps for now. Can't think straight right now; need to hit the sacks. End of commercial break.

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Sorry Sorry

In the mood for Sorry Sorry by Super Junior, giler addicting lagu nieh!

Last week, that vermin named Karamel did something that pissed me off big time. For the previous weeks, she had been going off early for several times without me knowing (which is not the source of my.. piss), and Bos#2 sent her an email to tell her last Wednesday to advise me every time she wanna leave early. And I said thanks to #2. And I was cool.

So, Thursday came. By the time I came in that day, she should've read that email. And realised that I was also included in the TO list. But, as the day gone by, she did not even acknowledged the email #2 sent (to me la, not to #2). I dunno why, but I was the very berry pissed off, but I didn't make it obvious le. No point, since she's quite an oblivious (if not ignorant) person.

So then it's Friday. I had requested for half day leave for that day on Wednesday, and #2 approved it. I made an effort not to inform Karamel about it, being a grudgy person and all. But somehow, throughout Thursday and Friday I gave hints that I'll be leaving early. The day went by as usual, until the time I supposed to go. THEN I purposely went to her place and told her I'll be leaving in a short while. She made a shocked face, not knowing anything about my half day. And I told her, "Didn't #2 told you? I THOUGHT #2 told you already." Smirks.

And so today (Tuesday), I did not speak to her about miscellaneous things at all (meaning, only work related things) since I was still teh pissed off. And just one and a half hour before she went back (she's on half day this time) she came to my place and said sorry.

At that instance, Sorry Sorry started playing in my head.

And being an Aries, my grudgy feeling subsided and I forgave her. And remind her not to repeat that in the future. Am I a good person or what? Gehhhhhh

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Fly High

In the mood for Real Lips by Sori



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RC

In the mood for 'Molla'ing by Maydoni

I just come to realize, all these times when I feel like giving up on solving(?) the Rubik's cube is because when I finally managed to complete one side, I'd be afraid to 'disturb' it to complete the other sides. Afraid that I will not be able to reverse the steps to get back to the yahoo!-all-9-same-colored-squares-on-one-face feeling.

Same goes with the past 20++ years of my life. I felt like I was contented enough with all the rezeki that Allah had gave me all this while, and not looking forward to do more challenging things in life (e.g. other than working in that so-called 'best place').

Now that I'm reaching the big three-oh, I feel like missing 1/2 of the adventures of life. To date, I don't really have significant items that I can truly call 'mine'. E.g., the car - my dad's. No land, no house, no estate, no loans, no responsibilities (as in family), no career to be proud of, none, nada, nilch. If you say that is good for me for not having anything to think and be stressed about (yet), thanks for the discouragements.

When I heard that a same-aged bachelorette friend of mine gonna own a house by mid-Feb, boy, how I envy her so much.

It's about time to flip the faces of the Rubik's cube. Will tell you when I finally manage to solve 'em all.

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